I loved you once.

What happened nung Friday--
Friday was great! :)
Well, it started off the way I didn't want to. Cause, we had this basketball test on physical education. And being the wimp I am, I got ten over twenty. I wasn't so amused at all cause my classmates were pressuring me. I hate being pressured. Sobrang they were like, "yung tuhod mo, louisa." I even wanted to say, "shut the fuck up." But that would be rude and all. So yun, my heart was pounding cause I was freaking nervous. And my friend's were not any help at all. They just made things worse. PEACE FRIENDS.I still love you guys though. After nun, was great. Cause nung papunta na kami sa cafeteria, nakasabay namin yung jumeaux sa stairs, or whatever. I don't really know if they're jumeaux or not. My friend just told me they are. Hmmm.. Maybe I should ask them. Haha, I wish I could do that. I don't even know the names. Hah. and then nung when we were buying our snacks na, nasa likod ako nung hotter sa kanilang dalawa, so I got a good look of him. Haha, I also stood in line after him. Makapal kasi ang mukha ko eh. :)) Bakit pa kasi quebecois sila eh, I have a feeling they don't speak english. SAYANG. kailangan ko pang gumaling sa french para makipag-conversate sa kanila. Lol. The only english word I heard them said is 'fuck.' don't really know kung sino sa kanilang dalawa. haha.
Third period, we watched STOMP THE YARD. and it was cool. It was my second time watching it. Another class was also in our room. And this guy was pissing me off. Cause he was saying bad words, bad filipino words. Kasi, this dudes are teaching him those words. He was like talking non-stop puro mura. So I was like really pissed off, so were my mates. And he didn't stop, he was getting worse and worse. THOSE STUPID DUDES. sorry lang ha, kasi you guys did really piss me off.

thoughts. do mine matter?

Naiinis ako sa lahat, sa bus, sa kanya. SA LAHAT. Pwede mag-vent? Kasi ganito yun, wala lang, ang feelers ng tao sa skul, except kami. Kala mo kung sinong maka-act. Para bang prinsesa na? God, ang bitchIt's ridiculous how lame teens could get, or even old women or men. Wala lang, sobrang sa school, like, you hear filipinos talking english, tapos yun pala, they didn't grow up here. At eto pa, they were talking to their own kind, filipinos. Wala lang, sobrang ang ridiculous. Kasi you'll know talaga na di naman sila mga englishero at englishera. Haha. And they also act like they're better than us, the newcomers. Wow, ang yabang. Ewan ko. Sobrang gusto kong mag-vent. Matamaan na, ang matamaan. Kasi masasaktan ka lang naman diba kapag totoo? Like I remember the time na, this girl was talking to her friend. And she was talking english, ang arte pa. Tapos biglang nagtagalog. So I was like, "what the fuck? okay, nag-english ka pa. Pinahirapan mo pa yung sarili mo." It really did piss me off. Eh, hindi naman premiere language dito ang english, kundi french. It's understandable if they did speak in french. Wala, sobrang natutuwa lang ako na ewan. Sobrang I felt like venting talaga about this. And ang conceited pa nila. At least, they see themselves as 'beautiful' unlike me. Ewan ko lang talaga ha. :|
Fuck din ang mga buses, I should have my own transportation or something. Naiinis ako, kasi ang sikip. Tapos sometimes, they don't stop where they are supposed to stop. Nakakainis. Naiinis talaga ko sa buhay ko. HAYYYYYYYYY. Anak talaga ng tekwa. Tapos friday na naman bukas, ala na namang pasok for two days. I don't like weekends. fuck that. BAKIT? kasi palagi akong nakasimangot those days. Alang magawa, nakakainis sila, blahh.
At eto pa, gusto ko ng mag-give up sa french, kasi feel ko di ko kaya matuto. Parang ang hirap hirap. Ang gago lang ha. Kailangan ko ata ng tutor, di sapat yung sa school. Pati ata after school kailangan pa. Fuck, ang slow ko.

ang bayad mo sa jeepney kulang pa ng dyis.

I'm here to talk to you about my needs. haha, nahh. Today was, I guess convivial. :) Me and my mates took pictures, a few. I also took a picture of mon enseignant. His name's Bond, Bond Aid. Haha. Oh, it snowed today. But it wasn't that cold. Last week was colder. I wasn't amused cause the bus stopped somewhere it wasn't supposed to stop. So I had to walk from there to here. It's cool that this kid was with me. But he's french. So I had a hard time conversating with him. At least, I kind of practiced my french skill. Well, if I do have it.
Tomorrow will suck, we have a new reglement. If you speak english or any other language besides french, you have to pay ten cents. Je n'ai pas l'argent. Magdudugo na ang ilong at bibig ko tomorrow. haha.
I'm gonna study math today. I feel stupid when it comes to math.

kiss me violently.

I watched twilight yesterday at the movies. But first, me and Shammah had to find banque scotia, cause that's the only near from here cinema that plays twilight. I'm not that gala you know. Ang fun, cause me and Shammah were talking non-stop, from the time we met at the metro. Nung nahanap na namin yung cinema, we bought tickets na. Buti nalang nakahabol pa kami sa 4:30 showing. We felt like we had to buy snacks pa, and we did. But it took us a long time kasi ang bagal nila iprepare yung food. Ang mahal ng popcorn and drinks, pero ang regular, super big man. I didn't even eat the half nung popcorn size. When we got in na, trailers were being showed. I enjoy trailers. And yun, a film with nicolas cage seems so cool. So I think I'm gonna watch it, but it will be out somewhere in 2009. So that's still a long time. When the movie was starting, naghiyawan yung mga tao. Nakakatuwa. Haha. And then yun, nag-enjoy naman kasi ako, kasi ang handsome ni edward. But, I think the book's still better. It wasn't what I expected it to be. I thought it'll be BIG, kasi super talk of the town, country, world. The acting's good. But the movie could have been better. I thought that it'll be the best movie I've ever seen, cause it's the best book I have ever read. I'm sorry, but yea. It's just my opinion anyway. After that, it's cold na. cause it was nighttime. Me and Shammah did a little gala. Cause she needs to be somewhere at 8 o'clock. And it was already 6:30 something when we got out of the movies. SO yun, we went to this custom t-shirts shop. I wanted to buy these cool glasses, the one that pinauso ni kanye west. But I thought, I wouldn't use it na. Cause it's getting darker, and darker everyday. Days getting shorter, and nights getting longer. Kasi winter is near na. So yea, I didn't buy anything. After, we went to garage naman, kasi we saw this really cool cardigan. But THEY WERE OUT. I was like, awww. Ang cute talaga kasi. And then, iyun, we went dun sa garage sa Atwater, they have it, but in large size. O diba, ang dissapointing. So I just bought a top, it's polo-like. Cute din, but the cardigan's really cool. That's what I want, yes, i still want it. I wish they'll have small next week.

cause now I'm stronger than yesterday.

Morning, in my first subject, I cut my bangs. Yes, with ordinary scissors. And it turned out gay, not as in dandy. We also had l'education physique today, and it was funn. I did alright on the basketball part. I was finally improving. I shot a few hoops, and this and that. Haha.

Today, I got my first report card. When me and mom entered the school, we saw her friend and then he introduced me to his daughter. She's kind of familiar cause I remember we used to have the same l'education physique time. My teacher talked to my mom about how things work. Why do we need to study french. Blahhh.. I didn't know it's a law. Unfortunately, well, not really, I got a failing grade in math. D D D. Haha. I found it funny cause this is the first time in my life I got a failing grade and IN MATH? haha, whoa. But in French, I got one B, in orale and the rest A. He gave me B in my orale cause he told me I talk to my filipino friends tagalog all the time. DUHHHH. What was he thinking? I should talk to my Filipino friends in chinois? I'm not that smart to talk to them all the time in french you know. My teacher told me that there's a big possibility I'll end up in adult school education next year. Cause I'll be seventeen before the school year ends. Mais, he also told me that if I'm good in math he could put me in Secondary 4. After, when we got out of school, it was so freaking cold. When I got home, I saw myself on the mirror, with red cheeks. I was like, whoa. Yes, I was really like whoa.

I'll get to see Twilight tomorrow with shammah. Yayyy us! I am wired. haha.I still haven't talked to Shammah about what time will we meet. Hmmmmmm..

HAHA.

My day was uhhhh.. not so great. I haven't made that much silay today. C'est pas normal. haha. My morning was okay. I was singing this:

"chaka nyang bading, nakakainis.
Mukha'y nanggagalit
Chaka nyang bading, nakakahiya.
Ulong naging nguso."

so yun, dinedicate ko kay Regie, cause as I told you before, he's diego sa comedian names namin. He was so infuriated, I think, cause I know he even wanted to punch me on my face. HAHA. and then he was like, "pasalamat ka babae ka." so i was like, "sige, gawa." Imagine me, having a blackeye. haha. Oh man, that sure would be something. That didn't stop me. while I was working on my seatwork, I thought of the next lines ng kanta, cause I couldn't remember it. Tapos yun, when I remembered it na, I was gonna sing it. But I don't want things to get worse. He would be rabid. Haha, I was feeling demented.

La météo aujourd'hui'. C'est très froid, pour moi. Haha. it's negative something.
Weather Today: It's very cold, for me.
Haha, I had to translate it. :D
We'll have l'education physique tomorrow. WAHH! I'm excited, cause I'm starting to love basketball. C'est une blague. It's a joke. I don't like any sport. I'm not athletic, I am namby-pamby. :/

extreme, extreme, magic sing sing.

Extreme, extreme magic sing sing.
Omfg, I was seriously laughing my fucking ass off. I don't know I just find it so jocose. My classmate even said na I'm nababaliw na cause I was so diverted. and then he also sang it, with matching moves pa. oh diba. lawlz. And nung recess time, I kinda showed off, I solved the rubik's cube, I don't know if they were amused though. lawlz. Basta yun, recess time is always a consummate time. Hihi. We had math, 2 french, and l'informatique today. Math, the usual, travaille, travaille, travaille. Oh yea, that means, work, work, work. french, we talked about science humaine. Oh, how I hate that. As our homework, we have to draw the map of Montreal, with the accent aigu on e, sorry, I'm lazy to change my keyboard into french. Oh, our teacher gives the worst homeworks everrr. It sucks. It was really cold outside. negative something. I had to wait for the bus for twenty minutes something. My everything was freezing. -.-

i love this picture, I love eyeliners. hihi.

omfg, i love bitoy. <3

hit the turbo.

A day with only myself couldn't be any greater. I'm now in my house alone. I love this. I haven't been alone in a house for a long time now. I like being alone, damn it! :) Sitting on the couch, writing this post, and watching my gym partner's a monkey. Yes, I am multi-tasking. I am also talking to my little truffles, Reyna, on myspace. I missed her. She went to Paris to visit her aunt, and then L.A. cause she visited her granny. Me and Reyna are talking about how cool filipinos are. And how she loves rice. haha. i love her. <3
I think I'm gonna work on my blog. I wanna make my blog comely. But I have no idea how to do it. At sana, I know how to work blogger out. pero hanggang ngayon di pa. I also want to write longer posts. But yea, I don't want to be emotional with you guys. It's not my thing. So I'm just gonna write random things- things that just entered my mind.
I love how companionless I am right now, that in this moment, me and my shadow are the only thing in my house. This is alleviation. Yea, it is. But this won't last long. I have to go back to Atwater cause they wouldn't let me sleep here-- alone.

And oh, is friendster working for you? For me not. It's been a few days now. And I am not liking it.

I burned every bridge I ever built when you where here.

And now, to talk to you about my friday. The most exultant day of the week. NOT! Well, we had P.E. today. And being the indolent person that I am, I didn't play basketball. I even had to switch shoes with my classmate so that the teacher won't let me play, I let him think that 'I' was wearing fucking doll shoes, not to mention with socks on. :D In my french class today, I was pissed at the teacher. Cause he confiscated my journal, it's not just a journal, fucking hottie robert pattinson is on it. <3 Yea, prolly, that was the reason why he pissed the fucking hell out of me. I'm sorry for my badly chosen words. I was stuck with that dude for three periods, GREAT! Can you feel the sarcasm in me? -.- We have to draw comics as our homework, and he will collect our cahier on monday morning. Unfortunately, I have no aptitude to draw. When I got home, I said a little hello to alice. After, I rushed to the room and searched for a future shop flyer, my bible. (not really). I was browsing for a DSLR camera, also on the internet, with my mom. haha. I just hope she'd buy me one.


And in class, we had our comedian names:
Moi-- pokwang.
Kristel-- Mahal
Kristine-- Mura
Ian-- Poohkyaw
Earvin-- Empoy
Jofel-- Dagul
Regie-- Diego
Shammah-- Maica.

Lols. :)))

i love you, but I don't love you

I'm kind of bored right now. I just finished eating my lunch. Well, in canada, they call dinner lunch, and lunch dinner. Odd isn't it? My day was uhhhh.. alright. Just the usual. It's pathetic, and I'm tired of having the same day. I want something interesting to happen, something new. I am actually bored of my life. Oh well.. On the 21st, me and Shammah will get to see Twilight, We have no classes on friday cause it's pedagogique. Hooray for us. After, I want to go to downtown, but I won't do shopping parce-que je n'ai pas l'argent. Je suis pauvre. (I don't have any money. I am poor.) C'est vrai. (it's true) It's Nicla's birthday today, she's already seventeen. I bought her a gift yesterday, a longsleeve from Le Garage. She deserves something special cause she always helps me with math. ^_^ When she arrived, we sang "Bonne Fete A Toi." It's french for happy birthday. She looked gorgeous today. She had her hair done, for fifty bucks. Too much for a day. I want to have a cellphone, I haven't had one for a long time now. But, I want some other things than that. Oh, can you help me with something? I'm actually thinking of asking my mom to buy me a DSLR camera for christmas. But the problem is I don't know which is better, Nikon or Canon.

love me or hate me, it's still an obsession.

I am sorry if I haven't posted in years. I haven't busy, it's just that, I can't think of anything interesting to post.
I have no interesting story to tell but yea, I'm still gonna post.

"You should be the model in this class"-Nicla.

I don't know if I spelt her name right. She's my math seatmate. We are both in duxieme level, so yea. Well, I just thought about that. I shouldn't be the model in the class, puh-lease, I don't even do my homeworks. Honestly, that originated from my french teacher. When he noticed that I don't always do my homeworks. WHY? I'm always lazy to do something.
Next topic, christmas is near. I'm kind of excited, since I want to ask my mom to buy me a DSLR camera as my present from her this christmas, or maybe at the same time, her present for me for my birthday, since the DSLR camera will cost her a fortune. She knows how I badly want one. I can't wait til summer. Why summer? I'll have a summer job this june (summer here starts in june). I don't know what my job will be. But all I know is, I will work in an office. But summer is uhhh, seven months away. So yea, I couldn't really wait.
Next, twilight's showing is on 21. Can't hardly wait. But I still need time, cause I still need to find someone I could go with. Well, I couldn't really go alone. It's not my thang going somewhere all alone, that wouldn't be fun for me. Apparently, none of my friends want to go with me. I need to find new friends to hang-out, I know. I'm still on the third book. UGHHH. I couldn't concentrate on reading. It's just that there's so many things I was thinking about. First, school, everyday we have freaking exams.
I haven't taken any good pictures of me lately. It sucks, I have been camwhoring lately, but yea, none of the pictures I took turned out the way I wanted. I was also thinking if I should get streaks of my hair red, or maybe another color. Since jonah have red streaks on her hair. I want something different, I'm bored of my hair.