Perception vs. Reality

In high school, they are pretty much the same thing. We put on makeup and football helmets, buy nose jobs and fast cars, all to reinforce perception and keep reality at bay. There might, in fact, be much more to someone than meets the eye, but in order to make such a discovery, you have to be willing to dig beneath the surface. Most people aren't, because it would upset the social order; but a few, very few, are.



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Bought an itunes card, downloaded 3 new songs:
(I don't want to use my mom's credit card to buy songs)

• I'm telling you by nick mitchell, yea, the dude from american idol.
• Goodbye you suck by Shiloh
• The fear by Lily Allen

I also downloaded apps for my iphone, I wanted new games. I also ordered something over the internet.

My life is fucking fantastic.
Cheers.

Being in love with someone who doesn't even know you exist isn't the worst thing in the world.

In fact, it's quite the opposite. Almost like passing in a term paper that you know sucked, but having that period of time where you haven't gotten your grade back yet -- that kind of exhale where you haven't been rejected although you pretty much know how it's going to turn out.

twit, twit, twit.

I have a twitter account.
https://twitter.com/louisarabla

1 week of spring break
Going to be alone in my house for a week cause parents have jobs.
Probably going to invite my friends to come over, ughhh, I need plans.

Met Louise Darlene Sumayo today at the cafeteria, she's pretty and such a sweetheart. Too bad we couldn't talk for long.

Tomorrow's going to be great, movies at school, that's the only thing that we'll do in our french subject. My computer subject will be before my short break, mwahahah! I know I'm going to get to see him on 2nd floor. I just hope he will go to school tomorrow.

I officially hate public transportation.

No, I'm not okay.

-It's hard fitting in, it's hard adjusting, I thought I did, but I was wrong. Every time I enter the school doors, "I hate my life." that's what I always say. I'm hopeless, pessimistic, despondent, disheartened, misanthropic, morose, diffident, everything around me is vague.

-I was wrong, totally wrong, all about the things that I thought were true cause I have wanted them to be true. My brain took me somewhere I wasn't supposed to be, made me think things that I wasn't supposed to think. Get over and move on, I wish I could do that easily.

Great, my teacher told me that after the 1 week 'vacation', we'll be having a test in math. This is so great. Oh how I love math. Not really. School sucks. I don't really know if the vacation's a good idea though, I know I could relax and be away from school, but there's nothing really interesting in my house, fersure. I won't get to see him for a week too.

your hands are mine to hold, speak to me.

We did not have school yesterday. I was in my friend's house yesterday, we watched movies, and sang the karaoke. I hope we did not disturb anyone though. They 'cooked' (cause we bought the mama sita's palabok sauce, they just cooked the pansit. ;) ) palabok and baked a cake. When we were in IGA, and I found out that they'll be baking a cake, I was so delighted to know I'll be eating alot. I really was. Shammah wanted to buy a wine but unfortunately, we have to be 18 to buy one. Jofel is eighteen, but the lady asked for an Id, unfortunately, he left his id in his house. Shammah really wanted to consume alcohol and thought of going to depanneur to buy beers. We didn't really want any.

Tong its (don't really know how to spell it) was my favorite card game in the Philippines. No, I don't gamble, cause I think it's stupid. Playing that game is only for my enjoyment. Me, my kuya, and his ex-wife, we used to play that card game. Me and my brother's former wife used to cheat on my brother so that he would lose. It was fun, but we kept losing though.

Yesterday was fun, except the part where I got mad and decided that I would not come to my friend's birthday celebration. I really felt horrible for that.

drop a heart, break a name.

I got my report card today. I got As in french and in math.. don't ask. Nahh, I got Cs, actually better than the last time. I got Ds in the first one. I guess I'm 'improving'. whatever. I guess I'm happy with my grades, but I know I could do better. I wanna do better in math, I need to do better in math. Why is math so freaking operose? Ughhh. And i'm not so ingenious?

I have no school tomorrow, yayy! I guess. I won't see him though. The reason why I always go to school. Oh blahh, melodramatic. I'm going to Jofel's place anyway. Going to spend the day with my friends. I wish the twins could come though, so that the gang would be complete.

(I love the picture. It makes me miss summer, and seeing the kids like this, but not the topless chicks.)

I'm two quarters and a heart down.

I find my life so uneventful. Every day's like every other day. Ostensibly, I'm a dreary teenage girl.

I bought a poster of Edward Cullen, (robert pattinson) for 6 bucks, I found it expensive. I did not buy the one of bella and edward, cause uhh, I really don't like the one who played Bella. I also lost my mitten while I was browsing the things in Zellers, I'm lucky that it wasn't wintry. Subsequently, mom and I went to Renaud Bray. My mom's friend gave me this gift card. I bought a sketchbook and a bookbinder. They're kaleidoscopic. :)

I've started playing Neopets again. So far, I have like 10 thousand NP. I kept buying my neopet a book, that's why.


Uhmm, I don't really know what to say now.
I'm sorry.

do I love love?

Happy Valentine's to you guys!
Hope you're having fun with your boyfriend, girlfriend, family, relatives, friends, dog, cat, frog, snake etc.

:)

Valentine's day isn't really my day as I told you before. Haha. But oh, I have a date with my camera.
:D

why did I ever do that? Ughh.

Okay, tagalog... mhmmm..

Kasi naman ganito yun, habang naglalakad ako papuntang plaza cote-des-neiges kasi dun ako kakain, biglang dumaan yung crush ko sa harap, gusto kong suntukin yung bag nya kasi naiinis ako sa kanya, so ginawa ko yung porma na susuntukin ko siya, pero di ko naman kaya yun. haha. porma langgg.. so after nun, may biglang batang lalake na tumalikod at nakita ako. Tapos nun, lumakad siya papunta dun sa kaibigan niya, kaya pala, kasi sinabi niya pala yung ginawa ko dun sa crush ko, tinuro turo nya pa ko. Nakakahiya talaga. Eto pa ang masama, di ko lang sigurado pero parang siya yung binabato bato ng snowball ng crush ko. So paano kung sabihin nya sa crush ko na ginawa ko yun? Ugghh, naiinis talaga ako kung bakit ko ginawa yun. Papampam kasi ako eh. Haha. Naiinis kasi ako sa kanya, ang ingay ingay nya, ang lakas lakas ng boses nya habang may kausap sa cellphone, ang lalim pa ng boses nya, nakakairita na yung boses niya eh. Pero, gwapo pa rin siya. Haha. Di ko talaga alam ang gagawin kooo.

Je vais mourir.

you love me, really?

In my class, we had a little talk about Valentine's. Oooh, a date for lovers, also for friends, but mainly, for lovers. Okay, so what are your plans? I don't think I'll be having a plan, valentine's day isn't really my day. We'll see.. if someone asks me out to be their valentine. ROTFL. I doubt that would happen though. Nyway, I will be spending the day before valentine's with my friends, not really sure though. They told me we'll sing the karaoke and bother the neighbors. They won't, I will. Haha. I don't know if my school will have a little something something on Valentine's. Since I don't have a boyfrann, I'll be giving a little something to each of my friends, not really something special though. Haha. I just hope not to forget to bring it.

About school--
Uhhhh, I think I need someone who would teach me math. Haha. I want someone who would teach me for free, since I have no job, I am not rich. Haha. I'm just messed up about this thing. I wish I was as bright as Einstein, I could live without his hair though. :D We went ice skating today.


And oh, boys are confusing.
:P

hello again.

A lot of things happened while I was gone. Wow, that was something new. I could tell you all about it, but I'm too lazy.

First thing, but not the most important thing, we have a new french teacher. To be honest with you, I kind of don't like it, for the reason that I am used to Mr. Santilli teaching us. He's a livelier person, he does not bore the heck out of me. It was his last day yesterday. He still goes in our room, but he doesn't teach us anymore, he's just there to watch. :/

I've been sleeping late these past few days, I had a lot of things to do. Thank God it's weekend again. All I am going to do is eat, sleep, watch tv, use the computer and maybe go out with Shammah. She asked me if I could come with her to this music instruments store. I think she's going to buy a guitar, or just the guitar strings. I don't really know. This time's sure, or maybe not. I could care less though.

I've also been annoying this week. Well, I kept teasing my classmate cause he looks like Zoneyo from Doreamon, and my friends also gave him the name, 'bangungot boy' cause he gives 'em nightmares. While we were eating in the cafeteria, I thought of combining the names. So I came up with ZOBA, and after, I made it THE ADVENTURES OF ZOBA. He was really pissed off and wanted to kill me in the cafeteria, well, he just wanted to strangle me, that's all.

My friendster account was hacked by a douche bag who can't even spell. I think the reason why he/she did that was because he/she thinks I was emo. What's the grudge against emo anyway? They're not harmful. They are human being for crying out loud.

it will be a long day today.

The plan to go out with shammah to eat sushi was canceled. She said, she and her mom had a fight about something. I felt horrible last night, I found out something and I'm not supposed to tell it to anybody. Ughh, curse him. The only good thing last night is-- I got to talk to my old classmate.
I'm probably going to read a book today, whole day. I'm still too lazy to reply to any tag post, I'm sorry, I'm just created this way.